This is deadicated to sean...I love you.
This also goes out to Nick, after running into you last night I remember how much I missed it when we were friends, I'm glad you quite drugs...keep well.

I don't want to go into the whole business of why i'm deadicating this to sean, because it really isn't my place to do that. But those of you who know will understand. And in a way, this goes out to everyone...everyone can learn from it. Please, try to learn from it.....

When you're a teenager friends are one of the most important things in your life. Thats so for me as well. One of my good friends is Sean. Since freshman year Sean and I have been friends, and I love him immensly. He has no clue what he means to me, and how great of a friend i thought him to be. And unfortunitly, I don't know if i'll ever get to tell him. Wanna know why?...
Drugs. Because of goddamn drugs. I'm almost 16 and i've never done drugs, and don't plan on ever doing them. Today showed an example of why i refuse to do them...But i'm not going to go into detail about what happened today, i don't think its my business to do so. but i will say this, to all of you who do drugs...
I know people tell you every day that drugs are bad for you, and i know that every time you hear this you dismiss it. You do drugs, you're cool, you have fun, and you're smart, you'll never suffer the conciquinces of them. But its to bad that more often than not, some how drugs will put a big damper on your life. And hey, that sucks for you...But you hear that every day and dismiss it. So hear this...
Your a murderer. You kill yourself, and the people around you. The people who love you. They must also suffer the conciquinces of you doing drugs. They're present in your life too, and therefor they experiance the pain you do...even if you interpret it to be pleasure. It won't be pleasureful when you get into trouble for what you're doing. Sean hurt me today. I was sitting at school, afraid he was in a car accident or something, truely scared...I had a bad feeling. But he was okay, wasn't in a car accident. But my bad feeling was still there, cause something bad did happen. What, I won't say. But now, I'm crying, because I have little reason to believe that Sean and I's friendship will be able to continue...As hard as I try, I'm sure it won't be able to. Thats why I cry, I cry cause I have lost him as a friend, and why? Because of drugs.
So as you dismiss all this yet again, if you even read it, just think...please think.
You're destroying your creation....you.